some music i am loving lately

i absolutly love Pinks new cd. I think i have about worn it out.. Paul is hating it at this point... Pay back for making me hate trace adkins

this is I dont believe you


i love the so what music video...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dJZDsJ8UU64

i just love jason mraz

confidence...

It seems mine is slowly rising. i dont know where it is coming from. I remember when paul and i were first dating and how i would make sure my whole outfit matched... even if that ment going to vickis or freddys and buying new matching sets... then we got married and had kids and it was just crazy from there. I noticed more weight gain and more of me losing myself. I cant describe the feeling of losing yourself and your self worth. it is like you are taken into this dark vortex and you have to fight your way out.

I have been doing that this last 19 months. I had my surgery. I have been taking better of myself. I am finding my inner beauty and working on accepting my outer self.It has been long. I am so tired of having to work so hard. I am so proud of where I have come to.

I dont know where this coming from but i will take it...

Hoping for a better 09

We went out for new years eve to fire and ice or something like that. It was so much fun. I will never drink like that again though. Everytime i turned around I had another red Very good drink but dangerous it is like a juice. We also danced the night away. we had a blast. At midnight we enjoyed a kiss and a slow dance.

Then friday hit and Paul has found a new job working for a dealership in danielson. I cant wait to see if this is finally our big break. No he hasnt forgotten about the laundry mat but right now this is the right move for our family. I have put my resume out to other places. I need more hours. In this day and late in the game families need two people incomes. We are learining that.

so far no big stresses :)