Just sad

We have 16 days till christmas. My mom still hasnt talked to me. I have emailed with no response. Would I do anything different absolutly not. Someone has to stand up for my brothers and fight for them. Do I wish she would see I was trying to help absolutly. Is that going to happen nope.
I am dreading christmas this year. I am waiting for it to turn around but I am not sure it will. My heart just aches. I ask my dad for guidence everyday but he just doesnt send an answer I am getting. I wish I had a crystal ball.

Not to mention one of my clients families have decided they dont need friday saturday care. so that changes my pay and means i am making less. I cant afford to make less right now. So now I am stressing about that. I am not sure what I will do.