whats been up

i have been busy preping stuff for xmas eve dinner. i think i have the menu planned.
we will be having
turkey, sweet and russet sage mashed taters, butternut squash, green bean cassrole, vanilla glazed carrots and peas
for dessert there will be a pie or trimisu...
This will be the first xmas eve we will be hosting and I cant wait. I know my boys will be excited. I will be busy cleaning and baking this week and weekend. we are planning to go to the live nativity on the green this weekend. We are trying to remain the holiday spirit but it is taking so much work on my part. so we shall see.

I am nervous about christmas day. I havent seen or spoken to my mom in 8 weeks. I am tired of her crap. I am tired of her affecting my life negitively. I am not willing to back down. So until she can get herself together and organzied and apologize am not going to speak with her. I am fine with that.

I wish my dad were here with us. I know he will be with us in spirit. i just wish things were back to how they were.